"Talk to someone" my left eye

I keep seeing this crap. I guarantee every single person who has ever tried to kill themselves has done just exactly that--tried to talk to someone. And if you're depressed, you know damn well talking to someone isn't the issue. Finding someone who cares is the issue. Try to talk to someone--one person who actually knows you--and it's like they've been sitting on hot pokers all day and you're spraying them with lemon juice.

So what do you do? Go all over the internet looking for--get this--complete strangers who always care more about you than the people who actually know you, right? I can't find a single person in my real life that actually cares just to listen but I'll go all over the internet (as if that's a real place) trying to express myself in little boxes.

And what I call "the 14-year-old girl response" and you know what that is.

Has anyone ever been brought back from the brink of self destruction by ????

Is it possible to do any of these things over the internet or have we all left reality?? If I had one single person in my life giving me a real hug, would I be in here? No. OBviously.

And the clinic. Talk to total strangers for the purpose of diagnosis because the people who actually know you don't give a damn about you. Then the dr prescribes pills, which are to enable you to function--nothing else. They don't treat causes--just symptoms. You're driving a car. The front driver's side tire keeps going flat because there's a nail stuck in it. Don't get a new tire. Don't patch the old one. Just keep filling it with air. Yeah, that'll work. It repeatedly goes flat again and again and again. Wow. That was so unexpected. That's a prescription. When no one in your life cares, go get pills.

I'm about 78 miles south of 'fed up.' There ain't no pill for that.

I've made 4 attempts. And again today, in a book, I read this garbage: "suicide is such a cowardly act." BS! It is an act of bravery and final recourse. Gee, if I just keep speaking the same lie over and over and over again, it will 'become' the truth. Can you make suicide go away by ignoring it or censoring it or telling lies about it? No, and only an idiot deigns to try.

If it was cowardly, I wouldn't have made 4 attempts. I'd have made one. Yeah, find people who are in unspeakable pain all day every day--the same people you shut out and shut down everyday--and bash them. If it's so easy, there would be no such thing as suicide attempts. There would be suicides and that's it. Book SHREDDED.

Talk to someone. Who? Let me talk to total strangers, like I'm a pile of dirty laundry waiting to be sent out for a fluff and fold. I'm depressed and I need someone I actually know in life to care enough to be there when I need to talk. Yeah, I'm the grand enigma all right.

A coworker's 14-year-old son committed suicide last year. I GUARANTEE he looked for someone to talk to. I guarantee he explored every conceivable direction and either got a few bumper stickers and a shove or just the door slammed in his face. Guaranteed.

Change "talk to someone" to "let someone talk to you." That's where the whole plan is unraveling before your very eyes--guaranteed.