lately ive been really depressed and down and unable to sleep. in the past 2 years ive lost appetite for everything i love, and i lost 45 pounds. when my parents say no to me about something simple like going to the mall, i get so depressed and cry for days and days. my mom wouldnt let me die my hair blonde and i felt so angry and crazy and i took 4 spoons of codeine. when im at school in the hallway walking to my classes i just start crying in the hallway, without any reason what so ever. i have such a lack of motivation, my grades are very down. i quit my after school drama club, and people keep asking me whats up. the only time that i feel happy is when im able to spend TONS of money on new clothing for myself because i think that it will change the way people see me, and make people jealous of me. but than when theyre jealous of me i get mad and depressed and ask my parents why everyone is so jealous of me. ever since i was little ive been getting so many thoughts in my head and when i try to speak them out loud to people i stutter and cant remember what i was thinking. today after class my science teacher asked to talk to me, and she seemed concerned for me and asked if i had a bipolar dissorder. i know that she wasn't trying to nessisarily be rude to be or anything. but she told me to read up on it because i had crazy mood swings. irregular ones. one minute i'll be mad and wont want to do ANY work what so ever, and be very ignorant towards her and my classmates. than 10 minutes later ill be really really happy and say how easy and fun science is than ask everyone if they need help with their work.
what do you guys have to say about that?
i appreciate your help alot.. thanks