Taking vyvance

I'm so scared. Everyday I feel alone,terrified and depressed. I take vyvance 30 mg,lexapro 10 mg and clonazepam 1 mg.I have been on these drugs for 2 years. I work at a lab and I do my own lab work. I have lymphocytosis and many reactive lymphocytes. I have trace ketones in my urine and my liver enzymes are very low ( although I don't know of any disease associated with low liver enzymes). I am diagnosed with ADD, dyslexia, anxiety disorder, depression.I have frequent sleep paralysis. The anorexia started about 3 months ago. I'm not hungry ever. I have to force myself to eat. I try to supplement with ensure, protein shakes , vitamins and I try to eat solid food once a day. I don't always succeed. I am 5.4 and 110. My mom abandoned me in a rehab when i was 15. She left me there. I was eventually emancipated by age 16. The guy my mom left me for is in prison for molesting children. I was molested several times by different people never raped. I found two different roommates dead in our a