I don't have an extensive appointment with my family doctor until the 15th so this is mainly out of personal concern/curiosity.

This paragraph I posted in the General Q&A section but I feel I have to elaborate on it a bit more and perhaps by doing so, I think it fits here as well.

I'm a twenty-one year old Male living in Ontario Canada and have been the odd ball my whole life but in the last month and a half my elevated mood (Got a lot sorted out in my life) has made my Synaesthesia -far- more pronounced.

Counting, memory, math skills...they're all changing for me dramatically at an increasing rate.

At first it was making me do Two-digit x Two-digit multiplication just to calm myself down to get to sleep. Now I can 'sleep inside' any of the numbers I want and I can basically pass out as my head hits the pillow Smile

It's been doing -only- good for my life so far. My memory has improved dramatically to the point where I can go through my entire day..or my entire day three days ago. You get the point.

Is this common with synaesthesia to progress with maturity?



So why do I think this has a relation to autism? I was very isolated when I was a child and especially into my teens. As much as I could connect with people when I wanted to I just wanted my own little room and all the books I could get my hands on. I ended up getting pushed along the road of life by my fantastic mom as well as my friends to put me in what most would consider a 'Normal life' for myself.

I had plenty of emotional baggage to keep me occupied when I was young. My father beat my mom and not only did I remember that vividly my entire life (I was two) my brother had no recollection of it since he was very young and we are two very different people.

I always wanted to succeed at everything so I poured myself into everything that wasn't my emotional baggage. I was the star student at presentations, computers..art..you name it. I always suffered in school though because I passed all my courses on pure comprehension alone and near 0% of my assignments were completed. I'd just pour what I knew into tests or presentations instead.

I'd drown boredom out sometimes by playing my favorite songs over and over in my head...note by note. But I figured everyone was capable of doing it on that level. As I got older I noticed this was definitely not the case.

Most of my friends are what a lot of people would consider "Nerds" and most (as well as I) am proud of it. However I'm not interested in any one particular subject. I enjoy physics as much I love movies/games/science/history/art/culture/l anguage/geography/astronomy and I just grew to accept that was my nature as I got older.

Recently the situation in the household put me in a really revealing conversation with my mom that sort of confirmed everything I was thinking about her boyfriend and his step-son..which I thought was all in my head for the past few years.

The weeks that followed I noticed my concentration was shifting to a more 'happy' focus. All the things that bothered me in my life seemed to all fit into place. I'd always lived in numbers but couldn't keep my eyes open in a math class after doing the problem the first time. Now I walk by buildings and know instantly how many windows there are..how many rivets. I feel like drawing them all recently but I've always managed to keep my sketchpads pretty full.

I've been able to grasp more of the Japanese I'd been studying the last few months as well. Obviously these things have all been for the better and I feel a lot more confident in myself as a result. I just want this appointment to be over so I can just get on with it

For just a small example of how much better my life has been on a daily basis, words and letters all have defined colors now as well as being able to memorize virtually anything. Just looking for some guidance or re assurance because it's been some what overwhelming emotionally.