hi!
Im a 25 year old guy and think iv been depressed for a long time.I smoked cannabis from the age of about 12 to 19 and think this may be the cause. while smoking the drug id get major paranoid in social situation and think this has stayed with me.
i find socializing with friends increasingly difficult and think i have a negative affect on the group im with. i say things and then worry if they sounded stupid or were taken in the right context.i'll often go over things iv said/done in my head until i begin to hate myself for it.
The last time i was proper happy was at about 19, i was really close with this girl but was so focused on the relationship failing that i never made a move.
Its not like im down all the time i just find life hard. would love to hear what you think, should i see the doc?