I am currently 19 years old and am right around 7 weeks and 6 days pregnant according to an ultrasound I got a few days ago.

I found out that I was pregnant, unexpectedly after feeling nauseous and generally no good and sick for over a week, when I went to the doctor for some meds. I had broken up with my boyfriend weeks before and didn't even register pregnancy as a possibility for me.

The situation between my boyfriend and I were super bad when we broke up (yelling, fighting swearing, hanging up, blocking numbers etc. ) We had both expected that we never would talk again until I heard the news that I was pregnant.

It was my immediate reaction that I would abort the pregnancy. I am a second year in pharmacy school and it is simply not the time in my life that I want or could possibly even mother a child successfully.

I was originally going to abort medically as I've known for two weeks or so but have decided to go with surgical abortion because both of the nurses I talked with during my visits seemed to be in favor of the surgical approach because of the difference in time that it takes as well as the medical staff that are located on site to be with me in case anything were to go wrong.

I am scheduled to go in on Thursday for my abortion and have been feeling very alone in my decision.

This is not something that I told my parents or any of my friends about. I told a cousin to ask her for advice, since she had an abortion before as well as the father of the child, my previous boyfriend.

I am Christian, but have always been pro-choice. My ex boyfriend is Christian too and was unsupportive in the beginning, asking me if I thought that killing the baby was the right decision and telling me that all I would have to do is have the baby and then he would take care of it (as if its not a big deal to go through with a pregnancy). I was extremely stressed out because of the whole ordeal (I didn't have any coverage or health insurance, though I do now) and as a result just told him I needed his support.

He relented and told me he would do his best to support me though he wouldn't totally agree with it. Well, I was scheduled to go in on Wednesday (yesterday) to get the first pill to do the medical abortion. I changed my mind on site and decided to come back in a week for a surgical abortion instead. My ex was livid. He told me that I was literally killing the baby, swore at me and then took the stairs down and left me standing by the elevator afterwards.

Since then, I haven't answered his calls or texts because I can't and won't deal with that negativity and stress because I honestly don't think that I can right now.

My grades have suffered greatly as a result of this pregnancy (feeling super nauseous to the point of having to leave an organic chemistry test to walk around outside) to just literally being awake less hours due to fatigue and nausea.

I originally found this ehealth forum by trying to see how painful the surgical abortion would be... I guess it will be pretty painful.... I'm hoping to get some sedatives, but still drive myself back home afterwards... Do you think that I will be able to do that? My boyfriend was going to go through the process with me for the medical abortion, but I don't want nor do I expect him to be there for the surgical abortion..

Now that I've written this all out, it seems as through there was perhaps no real reason for me to post... I just thought I would post this experience and my feelings and thoughts up about it so that other girls that will go through an abortion could possibly be less apprehensive and worried than me.

I will post something after I actually get the abortion done. I will be going to a planned parenthood for the procedure.