well i have no memory of anything happening to me as a child however, my mum told me that when i was 3i was in be with her and her boyfriend, and i touched his penis, he instantly stoped me and told me u dont do that apparently i said 'but daddy lets me'... the i came back from my dads one day and i wouldnt speak at all, mum took me to the doc he reported that sexual abusemight have happened. cour case- dad apparently said 'i was in the bath with im, i touched it, and he didnt stop me because he thought i would et upset r something'... this was all told to me a year and a half ago... i knew bout sex sice i was like 5, i had sex when i was 11 but i didnt bleed which makes me think i wasnt a virgin, also i was itchy down there at 10 scratched so hard it bled, mum thought it was my period- foun out dad hs herpes, im hyper sexually active, but wenever i have sex i fee awkward, yuck, icky, just this grose feeling, ive been depresesed had anxety... all these symptoms of sexual abuse... i just dont know wat to do i still have a relationship with my dad, its the not knowing that is killing me, i just dont know- wat if nothing happened, and i it did ow would i even look at him? im scared to find out...does anyone have any suggestions for me?