Hi,
I'm not really sure where to start, I'm kind of desperate to find a solution. I am nearly 20 now and have been depressed since I was a child. I suffered a lot of emotional abuse as a child and became very withdrawn from my peers. As a result, I became more and more depressed and my feelings of worthlessness grew. I also never really developed the social skills or much of a personnality and now find it hard to relate to other people. Over the past year i have finally overcome an eating disorder and have tried to engage in more social events. The problem is I find it harder to hide my depression from my aquaintances, I feel absolutely worthless and really don't care about what happens to myself. I feel as if I am absolutely alone all of the time, while around people I act bubbly and happy but underneath I am considering whether I should just end things. I have posted this now because I really want to try and improve things, this is kind of my last hope. I didn't really care what happened before but now i am trying to succeed in school and develop friends and hobbies. Over the past few months I have been sleeping excessively and procrastinating more and have obessive thoughts over controlling my weight which is really the only thing which I feel gives me a sense of accomplishment. Could you please give me some advice on how i can cope with things, is it really possible for me to improve my sitaution if i am nothing more than an empty zombie?