For a long while, I have suffered from various symptoms. I have hallucinations of shadowed figures and black butterflies that make me paranoid and freaked out and sometimes leads to losing myself to my mind. I also suffer from depression as it was diagnosed a few years ago. I have had multiple manic episodes where I feel like I lose control. I also hear voices in my head that speak to me and comment on my actions which is very distressing. I also have uncontrollable rants where i play out verbal scenarios and can't stop myself until I finish and they commonly end up violent. Lastly, I lose control of my mouth and another voice speaks out of my mouth without my knowledge of it until I hear it. While these symptoms have been around for years, it was not until recently that I was able to mentally accept that it was all in my head. At this point in time, I know it is just my mind working against me. Im sure I've left some things out that I will remember later... My concern is that while from what I've read, I have various symptoms of this disorder, but various people have said that that is impossible because I realize that that I'm having problems. Can someone please shed some light on this so I can find out if I need treatment. Its stressing me out and making me dysfunctional to the point where i have no motivation and no ability to do even the simplest of tasks. Thank you for your time.
When you hear voices, identify the sounds in the room when you think you are hearing people say something. Google 'thought stopping' as well and that should help with the voices and hallucinations. Nurture your inner child so find things around you that make you feel really good and give you comfort. We are always here for you.