Suffering from Anorexia

hi I am new here and admitting I have a problem is I think the first step to beating it. I eat very little about 2 cups of food a day. I drink allot of coffee and water. It hurts when ever I eat anything solid. I have been eating some soups but it gets old after a while. Tomorrow I get paid so I am going to buy some of my favorite foods that I cant resist to eat. i am also going to get some meal replacement drinks In my favorite flavors. Every time I eat something solid I get a bad stomachache and feel like I am going to be sick. I take a muti vitamin every day so I am getting something in my body. I can eat veggies and fruit well because they are my favorite foods. I will get some tomorrow.

here is a little history. When I was a teen I was Anorexic so bad that I only weight 100 pounds. it went from age 16 to 19 where I got pregnant and finally got to a healthy weight. I am not that bad yet but I know I am going on that down hill spiral.

I lost my husband of 6 years October 17 2009 and I am not taking it so well. I don't want to starve to death as I have a 6 year old to take care of. It was a bad year last year. I also suffer from manic depression witch does not help.

I find my self alone and single and and in my mind I want to look good for the next man of my life. I am only 31 and I know my husband would want me to move on. I am not seeing anyone right now as I am not ready. I take meds for my depression. I also have low blood sugar witch could cause my death if I don't start eating again. I moved in with my mom after he died so I have my family with me. And they have been a blessing to me. My mom cooks dinner for me every night but I hardly eat any of it.

I hope I will be able to beat this once again.