Hi, I've never posted on here so bear with me!
I've had a rough time of it pretty much all my life, alcoholic mum, left home at 14 but have always been very strong and have made a good life for myself and have a good career and a beautiful family that I am very proud of. These are my problems though:

Although my mum doesn't drink anymore she is very weak emotionally and puts a lot of pressure on me mentally, for example everytime I call her she tells me how terrible her life is and how ill she is feeling.

I found out several years ago that my dad abused my two sisters and neither of them have anything to do with him as a result. The one makes life very hard and won't even ring the house to speak to our mum incase my dad answers. She wishes he was dead and would cut me out of her life in an instant if I ever pushed the situation (I am the youngest of five and none of the others are around). My dad is also a complete rogue (in his 80's now) and talks to people like dirt, treats my mum very badly and has no thoughts for anybody but himself.

I have been in a good relationship with my husband for 14 years. We were young when we met but only started a family 4 years ago. He is great in many ways but is very short tempered and recently became abusive with me. My first thought was to leave but I can't see a way to because of finances and unsettling the kids (they are very happy). He leaves me to deal with everything that matters ie bills, cars and repairs, appointments, arranging days out and holidays, jobs around the house, absolutely everything. Whilst I don't mind to a point I find it very stressful and he wouldn't even notice if we were in trouble with the mortgage and I don't think he would care. We are ok financially, we have quite a bit of credit card debt but it is manageable.

We have two beautiful kids (under 4) who are very good but I find myself shouting at them recently and that just is not me. We have no family around to help out with them which adds to the pressure but I can't complain about that as they are my kids and I accept full responsibility for their care 24/7.

I just feel like I am running out of steam. I am tired all the time, irritable, over sensitive, having trouble sleeping, I feel dizzy, I feel shaky on the inside, I get a numb feeling in my left hand that comes and goes. What is going on? I hate to admit it but I think I am suffering from stress or anxiety and I don't know how to deal with it.

Can anybody help me out here and tell me how to shift this heavy feeling and feel better.

Thanks