I always thought I inherited it from my father. He's always been angry.. and still throws temper-tantrums from time to time (he likes attention). But I get to the point where I feel like doing something completely irrational. I never have before, but I think about violent things that could happen to the other person. It sets me off when I hear something as little as a smart comment. I get a sinking feeling in my heart or lungs, and either yell, be completely silent, or when it's that bad I throw things. I punched a friend in the face for whining about a "what if" thing that would never happen. Usually it's things like traffic, comments, judgmental people, and people not playing by the rules. If I stop to breathe or relax, I don't - my mind just starts festering more and more negative thoughts. I can't help it though, I just automatically think the worst of everything for some reason... and it's my honest first thought. I wish that could change.