Strange mental state before falling asleep Posted: 05-14-08 13:19pm
I've been struggling with sleep issues
since I've been young. I'm the type of
person that wakes up at the sound of a
pindrop. Perhaps my ancestors were guards
or sentries that needed to be aware even
during sleep, heh.
Anyhow, getting back on topic, one of my
most recent problems has been these odd
feelings right before entering the first
stages of sleep. It's been going on for
months now and shows no signs of letting
up.
Basically, the easiest way to describe it
would be an overwhelming sense of
mortality. I feel fragile, mortal and
feel a sense as if death is near or very
close to me. Thing is, I'm a very care
free person, often described as laid back
or relaxed. I try not to worry about
things in life I can't control, and the
fear of death has never been a problem.
Before going to bed, I feel fine. Not
stressed, not anxious at all, feel tired
and as if I could sleep in a matter of
minutes... and the last thing on my mind
is death or thinking about my own
mortality.. Then out of nowhere, when I am
about to enter a dream state, I feel what
I've described... There are other strange
feelings too, sometimes my mind will
replay a situation I've had during the day
but I feel as though I'm viewing it,
feeling it, experiencing it through
someone else's mind. It's difficult to
describe.
It's not really a fear of death that I
feel; more of a deep (but false) awareness
of how I'm approaching death. It almost
feels as though I can almost tap in this
madness and extract when and where I will
die, as if it's right there but I can't
quite reach it. It sounds crazy... Maybe
I am going nuts, who knows. I'm 28,
healthy, fit, no diseases or problems that
I know of... Yet I am tormented by this.
I've done searches and have not found
anyone else with this problem. I don't
know if it has anything to do with the
fact that I have lots of trouble initially
falling asleep, or what...
I've tried everything. From reading (easy
reading) before bed, which has helped, to
not eating / drinking anything before
sleep, to sleeping and waking up at the
same times everyday, or only being in my
bedroom to sleep, etc. Nothing has
helped. These strange odd sensations
always come up, out of nowhere, and
disrupt my ability to fall asleep, keeping
me on the borderline of falling asleep
until the wee hours of the night.
Any advice?
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MandMs
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Posted: 05-16-08 06:18am
Are you getting a sense of being dead?
Do you find yourself frightened at that
moments?
For how long you have difficulties falling
asleep?
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pwnytail
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Joined: 25 Jul 2008 Posts: 1
Re: Strange mental state before falling asleep Posted: 07-25-08 00:40am
I have something ridiculously similar...
and it's terrifying me.
I'm not depressed, though it's not like
I've never been before, so I understand
what depression feels like. I lead a
relatively "normal" life, and am a very
happy person. I've always been a very
heavy sleeper, and never had any problems
sleeping (even with a tv blaring or
something of the like).
Except lately(just only the passed few
days), the moment I lay down to go to
sleep, and things get quiet, a sudden
feeling overtakes me completely. It's of
death - and the possible chance that there
is nothing after I die. It's the
nothingness after death. I can feel the
nothingness... it's so difficult to
explain. For the first time in my life, I
literally cried myself to sleep. Since
then I've been reluctant to lay down to go
to sleep.
I don't think about death on a regular
basis... and it's not as if I think about
it on my own when I lay down. It just
happens, and it truly upsets me. I don't
know what to do, I don't know who can
help. My boyfriend just tells me that it
will "blow over", but he doesn't seem to
realize the severity of the situation. I'm
honestly suffering, and I just don't know
what to do now.
If anyone out there can help me, please
don't be shy and share your thoughts or
questions.