Strange Fecal Incontinence

Hello,

I am 24 and I am living for 14 years almost with troubles with fecal matters and toilets. It all started when a teacher didn't let me go to the toilets while i was in class.
Since then, I am carrying this issue, and I can say it ruined my life until now.


Basically, right now, the problem is this: When I go out, "off routine", to unfamiliar places, with people I don't know, I get into stress, of not having a place nearby, wherever I will be, to do my needs (again, this is not urines), so I prepare myself, and release myself well before. But its always on my mind, when I am at work, and a lady asks if I wanna go eat with her, at first I get freezed, and being in a situation where I have to release myself.


When I do new things, I get a little stressed\anxious, my bowel starts feeling heavy, and I feel the need to go, even If I went earlier. And the weight just goes on and on, gasses starts to exit, and a PAIN is felt in my lower stomach, an intense pain. At this point, I know, I will have to find a discreet place to do my business otherwise I'll poo in my pants.

So, when I do find the place - and do my needs - the excrements are soft - not liquid. If I was at home, all day long, at that point, my poo would have been nice and ferm...

I went to doctors, and felt like they didn't understand me. I tried diets, Imodium (which in the end were useless cause my body got used to it - or my mind?-). Please help me, I want to be normal. What is wrong? is it psychological? is it physical? Does anyone feel the same? will I ever be able to go out and not think of toilets all the time?


Please help..My life sucks...Thank you,