Hello, I have intermittent exotropia of my left eye. The deviation measures in the mid 20s for both near and far. It's a real pain, literally. My eye hurts almost constantly. I get double vision in certain gazes and my eye turns out and suppresses when I read. I get headaches, as well. This also causes me to be self conscious. I have to concentrate to keep my eyes aligned. I feel like it is breaking down into something more constant because of the amount of work I have to do to work around it. Tilting my head and straining my eyes to make the left one work properly.
So I am finally wanting to get this fixed. I've had it since I was four years old and have done nothing more than a few simple eye exercises here and there my whole life. I've been to a vision therapist recently. She never gave me anything concrete. After one session, I quit. So an orthoptist measured the angle of deviation and said I certainly could have it surgically corrected.
I am nervous. From what I read online about this surgery, I cannot help but feel this way. I do have 20/20 vision in both eyes and pretty good binocular vision. It just tends to be blinky in the distance because it becomes more difficult for me to use both eyes together in the distance without squinting.
Is there anybody else with intermittent exotropia? Is it a bad thing that I did not have this corrected when I was younger? Is the surgery successful in adults? I suppose I fear surgery making it more noticeable. Although it is a real nuisance, at least now I can hide this problem whether it mean tilting my head or squinting or whatever.
I just want to be rid of this self consciousness, double vision, suppression when I read, squinting and head tilting. I want to be able to use both eyes when I read a book. I guess another big fear of mine is losing something I already have. Like binocular vision.
I also have a question about if this will ever come back, if surgery is successful. I am afraid to battle my eye being aligned for the rest of my life. Maybe that's a silly worry? Is surgery a cure? No more deviation after surgery?
Is there anybody out there that is willing to discuss this with me?