I'm 21 years old and recovering from an eating/body image disorder. I've managed to stop making myself throw up, and I almost never skip meals OR compulsively work out anymore. I've managed to keep myself at a healthy weight (127 lbs) for the last 3 months.
But--I'm still obsessed with food. I'm not really on a diet--I don't lay any food restrictions on myself--but I regulate my portions almost obsessively (bring out the measuring cups!) My interest in cooking, a mere pasttime before my disorder, has grown to the point where it is my only sustainable interest, and daily I find myself leafing through recipes (diet and non-diet), thinking of what I should buy next time I shop for groceries.
I'm torn:between my head, which tells me that I really shouldn't be thinking this much about food, that I'll do fine even if I don't plan every meal to be a certain number of calories and nutrients, and my heart, which takes true pleasure in eating delicious and healthy food, would hate to lose what is now my only hobby aside from exercise, and (as I suspect) is still worried that if I slip I'll gain back the 30 pounds I've managed to lose through my ordeal.
I've looked extensively through many websites, blogs, and how-tos about stopping cravings, stopping snacking, etc etc. but much of the advice doesn't apply to me (I don't keep candy in the house, my cravings don't go away after 15minutes, etc etc) and since most advice seems geared towards people who are overweight, I feel kind of stuck.
So...any advice? Tips? Suggestions? Referrals? I'd appreciate anything you have.