I've recently noticed a pattern of setting things on fire to calm myself down when I feel out of control regarding my level of depression. This type of thing seems to have been going on since I was as young as 13 years old.
I was diagnosed with depression only a few months before my mother died and that essentially halted my treatment, but I'm in the process of starting treatment again with a new doctor and I'm not sure if this is something that I should mention or be concerned about in general. Can anyone help me?
For clarification. By "things" I mean pieces of paper and sometimes fabric items like..a sock for example. Nothing large. I don't know how to explain fully. Its a conscious action, but I didn't realize it had such a calming effect on me and I didn't realize until recently that I'd been doing the same thing throughout childhood when my depression became too much.