I hadn't hurt myself in almost 2 years. I just did it this morning. I feel like a failure, but i also feel like i dont deserve pride, that im not good enough to feel proud of myself. So my failure doens't really matter, because I'm not good enough to feel proud about anything at all. Im so frusterated because it didnt give me the release I needed. Usually just seeing the blood made everything stop, but this time... it wasn't the same. It felt like a waste. Like I can't even do that right. I feel so defeated, even my last resort didn't help. I dont know what else to do.