I hadn't hurt myself in almost 2 years. I
just did it this morning. I feel like a
failure, but i also feel like i dont
deserve pride, that im not good enough to
feel proud of myself. So my failure
doens't really matter, because I'm not
good enough to feel proud about anything
at all. Im so frusterated because it didnt
give me the release I needed. Usually just
seeing the blood made everything stop, but
this time... it wasn't the same. It felt
like a waste. Like I can't even do that
right. I feel so defeated, even my last
resort didn't help. I dont know what else
to do.
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spongebob23
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Joined: 04 Jun 2008 Posts: 31 Location: , Uk
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Posted: 06-04-08 15:09pm
Im Sorry you feel like this i tryed to
stop a couple of years back and its hard
work to not harm yourself you should feel
proud of yourself for that and as for
going back thats normal because the
thought of it going away never leaves
you..Have you tried alternatives to
hurting yourself you may get a beter
realise from that..
Draw on the area of ur body u wnt 2 cut
with a red pen
or
wearing an elastic band and pinging it
when u feel the urge
