First and foremost, was this consensual? I need to make sure you aren't feeling bad for something that was forced upon you. And, was this 5 guys separately (having sex with them individually) or 5 guys at once (like an group sex situation)?

If it wasn't, you need to speak with someone (preferably police) and seek counseling. Women in this situation oftentimes feel guilty when it isn't their fault at all.

If it was consensual, I imagine you feel dirty because people don't talk about it openly. And I'm not exactly sure how frequently this act it done, but people generally don't talk about it. Maybe you want to think about if this is something you really wanted to do, and if you'll ever do it again. I've felt guilt about sexual acts I didn't necessary want to do but did consensually just because. Reflect on how you're feeling now...what made you feel this way? Is there something in particular you were uncomfortable with?

These negative feelings usually follow an act that someone is unsure about. Think about that, and then learn from it. I need to urge you to talk to someone though, especially if this was not a consensual act.

Good luck honey.
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Exploring your sexuality is normal. The only thing I would suggest is that you make sure that everything you do is what YOU WANT to do, and not because you feel pressured to do so. If you all enjoy it and nobody gets hurt then, to each their own. Do you feel dirty when you think about what you did, or do you feel dirty because of what people would think if they knew what you did?

If you're uncomfortable with yourself for what you did then learn from your mistakes and the bad feeling will go away.

If you feel dirty because of what people might think if they knew then don't tell anyone. Keep what you do in the bedroom between you and the others involved. Ask the others who were involved to do the same thing. If they feel like they have to share their story then atleast make sure they don't share names. As long as what you do is concentual and nobody is hurt then no one needs to know what you do in private, unless you and everyone else involved wants others to know.

noo it wasnt forced, i did it because i wanted too. I just feel dirty because its not something u shud do i guess...idk. I dont care if they tell anyone that i had sex with them. ANd it was 4 guys at once...

Why do you think it's something you shouldn't do?

The thing is, you are the one who decides what forms of sexual expression are ok for you. Are you worried that other people will judge you, or worried that you did something you're really not ok with?

If you really feel like it was a bad choice to make, then all you can do is accept the fact that you tried something, decided it wasn't for you, and move on. No biggie.

What "should" people do? And who's telling you that you shouldn't do it?

Ack- I swear...if you look at someone cross-eyed, people think that is being a "sexual deviant." You don't have to worry about if it's something you "should" do. If you want to, then do it!

I am just concerned because the tone of your posts seem to display regret or not actually wanting to do it. I know you explained you wanted to...but, I just get concerned.

It does sound like though you say you wanted to do it you're having doubts about it now...all you can do is learn from this and if you are feeling guilty and are having doubts and second thoughts then maybe this wasn't for you and you should just learn from it and move on....
how old are you? I only ask this because I dont want your reputation to be damaged..I just hope the boys you did this with are mature enough to respect you...many boys like to talk of their bedroom adventures

It's okay to explore your sexuality if you feel comfortable doing so. You are not in a committed relationship and you are not hurting anyone because of this act. Just make sure to use protection like a condom so you do not contract any stds.