Hi, my name is Majid, I'm from Saudi Arabia, 19 years going 20. University student.

I suffer everyday from social anxiety and stress, I have these two as a result of a semi-sexual abuse (I'll explain this semi thing a bit later). I wish you could help me overcome my problems with any advise you have.

First of all, I'm a Saudi citizen living in Saudi Arabia, as you know this is an Islamic country with an Islamic system. You can't have sex unless you're married or else you'll be hanged, and of course this leads to the fact that you can't meet, date, or even stay in a closed place with any other woman unless she's a close relative. I'm not saying this is good or bad, but the problem is that even when I wanna get married and go to a house asking to marry a girl, no one will accept because I'm a student living with my parents, and because I have no income (yet).

There are lots and lots of guys who meet women whom they are not married to and fulfill their sexual needs. But I don't want go that way, because it's wrong in our law and religion. So there you have, I'm almost 20 years old, never kissed or touched a woman in a sexual "way" my entire adult life. It's kind of killing me knowing that I may not do that until I'm 25 years old (this is when I'm ready for marriage after graduation and working in a job).

Anyhow, I'm a very good looking guy ever since I was a kid, and unfortunately In Saudi Arabia being beautiful Is more of a curse than a bless. There's a huge sexual repression in our kingdom, this created another problem in our society which is homosexuality. Thank god I was never a subject of a childhood sexual abuse, but what happened to me was perhaps something worse than that. People were looking at me sexually, I became extremely suspicious of everyone around me. That's why I'm a very lonely guy, and I like my privacy a lot. I've rejected all friendship requests, my close friends are very limited even though I'm so respected by others and I have many friendships but not close ones.

Even now when I'm an adult, I heard some people (other student) last year talking about me and how "cute" I'm and how they want me sexually! Before I heard them I was almost back to normal, I was socializing, going out with friends, meeting new people, I was laughing and acting normal, but after I heard them, I was devastated. It's really hard for me to know that "other men" think I'm good looking and sexy and how they "want me"!

Now everywhere I go, I'm stress and anxious. Fearing ones who I'm talking to are thinking of me in a sexual way. Even though I'm a great public speaker, great in socializing with others, I'm still not acting as who I'm, I know I'm faking my current personality in order to adjust with my social anxiety and stress. But I HATE IT! I want to act as myself, this fear is killing me. That's why I love being alone, because when I'm alone, it's almost the only time I can be myself.

Please help me with any advise because I need it especially when I'm living in this sick society. I hope my problem is clear (forgive any writing mistakes).

Thank you.