Ive been good for a few yrs now, but
lately i find myself slipping back, I was
actually excited to start working again
because then i wouldnt eat at work so i
coul dlose weight, lately i barely eat
much and ive lost weight, I know its no
thealthy. But at the same time i just
wanna get to my goal weight because right
now im sorta in the overweight range after
having 2 kids , im not like obese or
anything of that nature but just still a
lil chunky and i miss my flat stomach. I
was anorexic and bulimic for 5 yrs. up
until 2004. My husband doesnt know, he
thinks i eat at work, if he asks i tell
him i did even if i didnt, I feel myself
slipping easily into old habits and lying.
I havent practiced any bulimic behaviors
though. I just I dunno what to do because
I dont feel im ready for help just yet.
Still in starvation mode diet. I keep a
food journal. I find myself lying about
what i eat and if i ate at all. Food
starts to scare me if its high in
calories. I hate it but love it at the
same time. Im not even anywhere near
underweight at least not yet. Im just
sooooo tired of being fat and this pudge,
I cant stand it. I sooo love to be at
work, even though i work at subway around
food im never tempted to eat it. I got
excited over having a coffee machine at
work so i can drink coffee all day and not
eat. Its pathetic. I duno that theres
anything anyone can say much to help, but
i did want to share with everyone here
whats been going on with me since ive been
on this forum for a while now.
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nightangel73
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Nov 2005 Posts: 2764 Location: ,
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Posted: 07-10-08 19:55pm
I think you should concentrate on your
kids and eat. You know if you don't eat
you will die, why would you want to do
that? I'm pretty sure you want to see your
kids graduate and have grandbabies. Think
about them. Go to a nutrionits to help you
with a diet so that you eat healthy and
you know you are not going to gain weight
if you eat healthy. So think about your
kids. Eat for them.
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Nancy89
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Aug 2008 Posts: 23 Location: Liverpool, England
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=] Posted: 08-05-08 14:25pm
Hey ED's are so easy to slipt back into.
You mus tknow how much pain they cause and
the fact you have 2 children should show
you that their more important things than
image. i was never ready to get help, tbh
nobody is you need to come clean and get
help. And your husband/children could of
even picked up on your habits already.
good luck xx
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NoMoreTears
Supporter
Joined: 15 Mar 2008 Posts: 35 Location: Poole, South West England
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hii Posted: 08-07-08 14:36pm
hiyya,
im concerned at the fact that you have
such a serious eatingdisorder and are also
acting as a role model for two children.
Your children will look up to you and will
learn from you.
Imagine how you would feel if one of your
children presented the symptoms of an
eating disorder. You wouldnt know what to
do because you would also be in the same
situation. Please do get yourself some
support. It is for you and your children.
If i put it in a different light...would
you want your children to grow up without
a mother because she had died. It's what
you are doing to yourself...literally
killing yourself each week you put your
body through the routine of not eating,
you shorten your life dramatically.
Im sorry that is harsh but its the truth
and I think you need to listen and
understand it.
Yours hopefully,
Natalie .x.
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Super_K
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jan 2005 Posts: 50
Posted: 10-10-08 03:08am
In response to Natalie, not to scare you
or anything, but my mom is anorexic..and
works out like crazy. She has been off and
on since before i was born. I'm a senior
in highschool and started having anorexic
behaviours around 8th and 9th grade.
Having my mom be taller and skinnier than
i am doesn't help, she deson't know that i
am / was anorexic because i dont plan on
ever telling her. She hasnt' told me, it's
just obvious. So pleasee, think of your
kids and how it could effect them..do you
really want them to go through what you
did?
