Hello. I have been with my boyfriend who we both have centered our lives to have a future together for 10 months. We are confident and secure that no matter what, we will stay together. I am presently living with his family. I am 19 and he is turning 18 next month.
The only issue is that I am a very open, relaxed, touchy-feely, communicative person. He hates touch especially in public and he is cold and rarely EVER shares any of his life to me. He never even mentions me to his friends, whether im there or not. He says its too personal to let the world know. He really does care but we've had daily fights because of our contrast. Even our perspectives clash. He loves war and videogames, I love country music and peace and music (ive written 13 albums) rock music and painting and making crafts and beads and just experiencing life and helping people as in volunteer work or children daycares. He hates everything I love and I dont like his favourite things either. I love sex all the time, he wants it every few days but right now we arent because he says hes taking a few months break from having sex once a day for our relationship.

The dreams I get, are of him. But in every single one of my dreams, he is breaking up with me, cheating on me, or leaving me. In one dream, his eyes turned black, and he was trying to kill me. In the next dream when i finially fell back to sleep, he was in jail for killing everyone in the way but he was better now, and i came to visit him and he was like, im so confused what happend? and then simultaneously, his eyes turned black again and he was bending the bars of the cell and out to kill me again.
Im sick of waking up crying and trying to listen to music quietly all night and not being able to sleep. he always wakes up at 530 in the morning and arrives back home at 6:30 or 7pm so we neevr get to talk about the dreams. Im so afraid all the time of going back to sleep. So i go days without finishing the sleep.

oh! and the first dreams Always end in the hour of 1am. If you need to know anything else, please ask away, this has been happening for, 6 or 7 months i think but it used to be spread out. now its Every time I sleep.. Please, I need my life back.