I was wondering if I was the only one who obsessively popped zits...I don't feel for them all the time, but once every 2 or 3 days I will squeeze my pores obsessively. I have to be as close to the mirror as possible, in my brightly lit bathroom. I think I need to be so close so I can see all the little pores on my face, and I pick. I usually have 2-3 small zits and TONS of blackheads. I always do this, same way, every couple days. I also have really dry spots on my face because i obsessively wash my face, about 3-4 times a day. My ex boyfriend thought it was very weird that I would sit in front of the mirror for 30 minutes and pick at my face, but i didn't even care..I think the thought of all that nasty stuff under my skin grosses me out, and i feel the need to be rid of it. Also, whenever my lips get dry, I pick at the skin on them too.
When I was in middle school, I had a lot of pimples/heat bumps on my arms, and I would OBSESSIVELY pick at them. I actually wore long sleeve shirts all through middle school (even in the summer) to hide the scabs I'd given myself. My parents took me to several doctors but I seemed like a pretty sane, normal little kid, i just liked to pop zits...so they never really helped me. Finally, by freshman year, the bumps started to diminish, and my social life started to blossom, so i stopped picking so much.
So now, the picking has started up again, though not as intense as it was in middle school, I think because I don't have very many zits.
But, If there is a bump, I will pick at it. So, this is REALLY embarassing and REALLY a problem, but I recently discovered that those little bumps on my nipples would come up with stuff if squeezed, so I started to squeeze them too. Now the bumps have gotten bigger and my nipples look horrible now. I'm really self-concious about it but feel stupid because it is my fault that they are this way. Is there anything I can do to cleanse them and make the bumps shrink back down? Soap and water doesn't work. I've stopped picking them and tried that for months.
Okay...on to the squeezing. I think it might go along with squeezing things on my skin. I like to squeeze things with my hands. anything that is soft and squeezeable i will squeeze it. like if i'm sitting on my bed i'll squeeze my blanket and wring it with my hands. I feel sorry for my cat, i poke at her fat and squeeze the fatty parts...GENTLY, i won't hurt her or anything. she probably thinks i'm giving a massage. I think it's weird because when I do all these things I BITE and CHEW on my tongue really hard. Does anybody know why I like to obsessively squeeze things? Do I need to see a Shrink about this? And possibly a Doctor for my nipples?
Sorry its so long but thanks for reading...it's been a loong road.