i am 36 years old with a boyfriend who is 23 years old. He has Bipolar and ADHD. At times he was very sweet and nice boyfriend. On his days of episodes, he's very mean to me and as if everything that goes wrong was always my fault. I tried my hardest to understand his situation but there are times Im on the edge of draining my energy that it consumed me.
I don't know where to get my strength to go over this, I want to let go of him but I loved him that much that it hurts me if I leave him like that. I scared too that he might commit suicide if I leave him, I dont know what he gonna do.
If he's on episode of depression, anxiety or I might call insaness. He always says he just wanna die or I will just shoot him. He cant take it anymore and those B_ _ _S_ _ _. I actually dont have time for all these drama because my life itself is a big drama. But I could let him go because my heart over rule my brain.
Please give me advice on how I will deal with this. I think I am losing my self control and might draw myself with him in the dark.
People of the universe, please spare me some wisdom and strength. Thank you!