She left me for someone else... Posted: 05-05-08 16:17pm
We dated for well over a year. Things were
great, yeah we had troubled times, but we
helped each other through so much. She
used to want to hurt herself, and did
sometimes, but I helped her through that
and now she doesn't anymore. I had open
heart surgery and it was because of her,
the love I have for her and how much she
cared and wanted me to get better, that I
left the hospital in 4-5 days. I smiled as
they pulled those damn IVs out of my neck,
it hurt but I couldn't stop smiling,
because she loved me. Over a year went by
since the surgery. I took her to a school
dance where she met my best friend. They
hit it off. The next day I had the both of
them come over. They kissed. From then on
we've been on a break, she was trying to
decide who she wanted more. Earlier last
week she decided who. Obviously, she
picked him. He didn't even wait a good
enough time for me to get over her, truth
be told, I will never get over her, he
asked her out on Friday. Her and I went to
Junior Prom together because we promised
each other that. I couldn't keep my eyes
off her, she looked so beautiful. There is
no one as beautiful as her. We hung out
the next day. We couldn't keep our hands
off each other, we're just so comfortable
and passionate with each other (no, we
didnt have sex -__-). I can't deal with
this. Ever since this whole thing started,
I've been crying my eyes out... I don't
have the motivation to do anything. I want
her back, I need her back. There is no one
on this planet as beautiful and silly and
clumsy and adorable and as smart as her.
Even though we dated for a year and a
half, when I think of her, my heart still
flitters, its like a butterfly that can't
decide where to go. Nothing I do doesn't
remind her of me. I buy french fries and I
need honey mustard. I hate honey mustard,
but she loved it and dipped her fries in
it all the time. Coca-cola hurts her
stomach, sprite is one of her favorite
sodas, blue powerade (my favorite color)
is on the opposite side of the spectrum as
red is (which is her favorite color, with
purple being her second), the trophy I won
from a competition has a woman on there
who looks like her, all my music is her
music. Anything I do reminds me of her. I
see her everywhere. I can't stand not
being with her. I need her. I need her
back, I really do. Honestly, there is no
one on the planet like her. I don't see
anyone but her. She is the only thing I
see. I hurt so bad on the inside, I just
need her... I need someone to help me
through this.. I love her, and I always
will. I will never stop loving her...
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Sinniebunnie
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Posted: 05-07-08 07:58am
Think about it. If she could leave you for
someone else SO quickly.. she can do it
again and again...
What makes matters worst is that she can
do it and still string you along.. do you
enjoy being a puppet to a girl who most
likely doesnt give a damn about you? if
she loved you she would never never kissed
another, picked him and then messed around
with you..
Ive been with my bf since i was 18 and i
never looked at another guy the way i look
at him.. i am 22 now btw..
By all means love her, but dont expect her
to return the favor.
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Manbehindmask
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Posted: 05-07-08 22:30pm
Its not that she is stringing me along. If
we were in opposite positions, it'd be the
same. We were our first everything
together. She was my first girlfriend, and
I was her first boyfriend. She felt as if
maybe how she felt for me wasn't all how
she made it out to be, and I secretly felt
the same. She just went first, and then I
sat around and thought about how it would
be to be with someone else. I thought
about how much happier I'd be. I thought
about how much more depressed I'd be. I
know what love means because she left me.
She is starting to see it too. Every day I
can see her struggling to try to be happy,
and its hard for her. I think we're both
getting the picture that we really do love
each other, but we just need some time.
When I first posted this I was upset. I
really was. I was crying the whole time I
typed it. Now, even though two days have
passed, I see that I was foolish. I should
try to be happy for her, maybe she will
find out that maybe what she felt wasn't
the real deal, maybe she will. All I know
is that I want her happy, and its getting
easier to accept that it might be with
another guy. I'm happy for her, I really
am. I even told her today that "If you
want to come back my arms are wide open,
but if your happy I will smile for you".
Maybe that is real love. I just want her
to be happy. She wants me to be happy too.
This guy wont even tell his parents about
her, he has to hide her. I have a feeling
that we're getting back together soon.
Only next time, we're gonna make each
other happy and keep it that way. I might
sound stupid, but I think I'm finally
understanding what that funny feeling she
gives me is. I know we're getting back
together, and I know we'll know we're in
love.
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eeyore46
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Posted: 05-07-08 22:43pm
Why did you have open heart surgery - how
old are you? I know there is more to your
post than this, but it would help to know
about those topics. I am sorry you are
hurting, there is nothing worse than a
broken heart.
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Sinniebunnie
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Posted: 05-07-08 23:40pm
Denial maybe. She is not with you right
now. She picked someone else. She doesnt
want you if she did she would have never
left your side. How can you take her back
knowing she has been with someone else?
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eeyore46
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Posted: 05-08-08 00:30am
Why does this person try to hide her from
his parents? Hopefully, she will realize
she has made a mistake and will come back
to you. A lot of times, people have to
seek another relationship to realize the
one they left behind is the one they
really loved. Also, a lot of times it is
too late and the other person has moved
on. In your case, it sounds like you
really love her and will take her back
should she make that decision. Although,
don't put your life on hold waiting for
that to happen. You need to also date and
experience other relationships as well,
just as she is doing.
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Manbehindmask
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Posted: 05-08-08 16:15pm
Sorry, Sinniebunnie, but she didnt pick
someone else. She wanted to know if what
she felt for me was real. I actually
wanted that first, but I never spoke up
about it, she just beat me to it. In the
process, I figured out that all I need and
want is her.
Eeyore46- I am 17, and I have had 5 open
heart surgeries. I was born with a heart
defect and I needed 3 before I had turned
3, one when I was 10 and another last
year. My next one will be in 8 - 10
years, and it will be just to put in a new
pipe in my plumbing. Yes, there is a lot
more to this post, just so much to it, I
think I could actually write a book on it
O__O
Yes, I really do love her. I always will.
You are absolutely right. If after awhile
she is happy with him, I will begin to
move on, I just need some time and I want
to make sure she is safe and happy. I
don't know why he is hiding her from his
parents, he is sometimes such a dork. He
doesn't see that it hurts her, he wouldnt
even come up to say hello to her until
after his parents left when we all (bunch
of friends from school) coincidentally met
at a public gathering.
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eeyore46
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Posted: 05-08-08 18:48pm
So sorry to hear about your heart
condition. I was born with mitral valve
prolapse, but not anything like what you
have experienced. Hey, that is a
positive, write a book - lol. Yes, there
will always be a place in your heart for
her even if it doesn't work out, life's
little experiences - some good - some not
so good! Take care.
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hearthuirts22
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Be thankful your young! Posted: 05-19-08 14:26pm
I'm 41yrs. & been misirable w/ my
"hubby" for 2yrs,he's cheated on me(i have
my way's of finding out!) & he denie's
it!! I hurt everyday~no family here,etc.
so, my advise is~ mingull,have fun,do
anything to get her off your mind!!hard,i
know. But, think about you & to hell
w/ a girl who messe's w/ your heart!!
There are still nice one's out there~ I
wish I could take my own advise!!! since I
can't, please~ YOU do it. all the best to
you!!!
