I have ED and get frustrated when trying to have sex so to stimulate myself I watch women masterbating while my wife is sleeping. She is very sexual and has done alot of things to fill my sexual desires. I can not give it up and she is getting mad because she said I am alive and here why do you have to watch other women. I told her it is not cheating, I do not go out to bars or out with the friends that cheat on there wife's. Why can't she let me have this one enjoyment?