im 15 about a year and a half ago my whole life was good apart from my dad used to hit me lock me in my room and not let me down stairs when my mum was working. i started telling my mum when i got about 11, she was brilliant she always made me feel much better. but my life has got soooo much worse scince, my best friend scince i was 4 moved away, wheni went to high school and got different school from my friends. i got an eating disorder, my mum got rid of my dad(that was good) all my friends fell out with me over something i didnt have anything to do with! i even got death threates by them and they were supposed to be my good friends! we had to sell are lovely home now me and my mum live in a horrible little house we have no money litterally looking down the back of the sofa for money for a pint of milk i have gained lots of weight i hate my body, it has changed soo much scince i got the flu at christmas. i want to kill myself everyday for a year i have been to school all year i have no friends my mum dosent talk to me she argues with me over nothing. i cry all the time she talked about fostering i want at least a hug but i get nothing i dont no her we fight all the time i faked beening sick for a week in a bid to get attention and she went on a date!then i really got sick and had to go to hospital then she was sympathetic but for about a minuite. i want to be a model act and study fashion and design i have no money confidence nothing i want to go to america too but suicide is far more realistic i have been with 3 phsycologists over the year i feel worse im crying now i need someone to take me away or ill have to do it myself xxxxxxxx i need help someone nice for a change