Severe anxiety, dellusions & panic

Hi, I just saw that you sent a thank you to my post, i just wanted to say that my baby is now 20months, and no matter what has happened she is the best thing that has happened to me, you don't realise how much love you have or how deep love can go until you have a baby, the way she / he will look at you is like food for your soul. no matter what you are the mother and your bond with baby is unbreakable, Try to think of that when you are scared and depressed. I still get depressed and lithargic but at the end of it i have my baby which is far better than any bender, one night stand or hedonistic lifestyle (for me anyway) I hope you are ok. I found it good to visualise white light in my womb, it made me feel like i was giving to the baby even when my mind was f**ked, you should try meditation to calm down naturally too Im not sure if you are a foodie / use food to make yourself feel happy but if you are be careful because it is so easy to put on weight when you are preggy and sooooooooooooooo hard to take it off after, and you don't want to have to deal with body image and unhealthy sex issues which may come about because of it ontop of everything else (speaking from personal experience) Mother hood comes with heaps of guilt so try to give yourself proops when ever you can