OH sweety, I dont know your age, but it sounds like you may need to talk to a professional. There are many people at school that you would be able to talk to confidentially without your dad finding out. There is a show that you should be able to look up online that is called Degrassi. It had an episode about a girl that cut herself. I dont know that it will help, but hurting yourself doesnt seem to be the answer and by the looks of it, you are beautiful and need to feel wonderful...
Best of luck!!!

I forgot to add to the last post is that your dad really loves you (if he was upset as you said that he was over your problem) and I know telling him probably seems impossible, but as a parent I say that you sit him down and tell him your problem (I know it will be hard) and ask him to help you find help. Reassure him that you love him and that some of the things that you are dealing with seem impossible to handle in a different way....
I really hope you well, and I believe that you will feel like a better person for letting your dad know what is going on. You also need to understand that your dad might take it personally, but that is sometimes what parents do until they try to see it from your eyes. Just remember he will only want the best for you.

im 19, and thanks for your posts i wish i could tell him again i just feel that i have tried telling ppl how i feel and it always seems to go wrong or they dont truely understand how i feel,i go counselling but my counseller always delays my appointments and i get the sorta feeling from him that he dont get it all i have left is my dad and i dont no were else to turn

I had a problem like yours when I was younger a little dfferent though I lost someone real close to me very young I was like 10 and I carried it with me and did things noone knows about to this day. Im now 25 and got through it, if u need someone to talk to about this Im here

IM NOT GONNA SAY I KNOW EXCATLY WHAT U GOING THRU CUZ I DONT .. BUT I DO KNOW BOUT THE HURTING YA SELF CUZ I USED TO DO IT 4 A LONG AMOUNT OF TIME .... AND IT TOOK M3H ALONG TIME TO GET THROUGH .. YA DAD REALLY LOVES AND CARE BOUT YOU AND DOESNT WANT TO SEE YOU HURT BUT ALSO HE HAS TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOUR HURTING AND YOU NEED HIM MORE DEN EVER RIGHT NOW ... BUT FROM THE LOVE FROM YA FRIENDS AND FAMILY YOU CAN GET THROU THIS ... IF U EVER NEED 2 TLK IM HERE .. AND IF NOT U CAN HIT M3H UPH ON AIM .. MY SN IS : JAZZERA3

Honey,
I am sorry you lost your mom that in itself is hard..

First let me say that I am a grandmother..No, I have never done what you are talking about..You will see that there are several cutters on this forum..

I'm going to tell you what I tell the others..If you don't like your councelor-get another..Always tell your parent-NO MATTER WHAT!

I understand that you feel cutting helps take your mind off your pain..No wonder it is a pain in itself..You are replacing one pain for another and physical pain is easier to deal with..That being the case-go running, do a diary, work in the yard, find a hobby, exercise, take kick boxing..These are physical things that can hurt..Actually I had forgotten about kick boxing or Tae Bow.

The thing is I am someone in physical pain 24/7 it hurts me to know people are hurting themselves on purpose..I can find no logic in it..I would love to be without physical pain..I do agree though that mental pain is hard to deal with..But, life is alot of mental pain and physical pain..Someday you will have a child-What will you tell your child? What will you feel if your child cut? I am here if you want to talk..kd

Sweetie I am going to give you the same information I have posted on others. You can call 1-800-DONT-CUT and the website (www.selfinjury.com)
This is also some advice I gave.

I want you to make an emergency box. In this box include crayons, or paint, and paper. A stuffed animal that you like. A puzzle. A word game book. Favorite author (one you can read and get lost in). Your favorite CD. Pictures of friends and family. A list of phone numbers
and addresses of friends. (Make phone calls, or write letters.) And lastly the BIBLE. When you hold fast to the Lord he will open the scripture you need. You friends in Christ through this website are willing to help you.

The point of the emergency box is when you feel like you are in an emergency of overwhelming emotions take the box out. Also keep a journal. Write things down. Okay you dont think your counselor is reaching you? Find another. You have to quit for you no one else. Because in reality the only one you are hurting is yourself. I know I give the same advice to anyone in this situation but its the best advice I know. I would be willing to listen and let you vent.

I know when my boyfriend found out, since we live together and he sees my full body everyday, the only place i Could cut was under my watch, and the only time i Could drink, was when he was asleep or at work all day and the only time i could smoke was when i was at cegep and had -other things to do-. It was so hard and it was so worth it ...at the time. but he found out everything, and it doesnt seem worth it anymore. I tried to look towards the future, and read alot and talk to more people, most of all, join this site.
Presently im working on trying to be the kind of woman Id want my daughter to be. Im 19 also. Talk to me about the pain you're experiencing, i dont mind what u say or how u say it. Im also one of the people here willing to listen.
BridgetWolf

Very proud of you Bridget!

Hey, Sorry don't know the full story.
I lost my mum too when I was 12.. i'm not sure what started the harming though... I know it was my best friend and my uncle who found out.. I hid it from them after to stop them worrying and also because they didn't know why they were angry because they were worried..

Feel free to message me if you want to talk <3