I have been suffering from depression, self harm for quite a few years now.
i have attempted suicide at least twice sadly what i tried did not work.
and now most of my friends have left me because of it, now i feel so incredibly alone i feel like trying to commit/attempt suicide again.
i am so scared i don't know what to do
i feel like i have no one i can talk to that's how alone i feel right now and i hate this feeling so much.
someone help me please.
Talking helps... I don't know what you are going through or why but it helps to talk to people and to ask for help when you need it.... and it sounds like you do. Keep you head up, feel free to msg me.
It only makes sense for people to shy away from things like self injury and depression. If you don't already have the feeling, or know someone very close to you who does; it can be completely foreign and hard to get a handle on. I am sorry. I don't know you but i can honestly say that I care (If only for selfish reasons) I'm on this site right now because I am absolutely terrified of what I am becoming and how the whole world seems to be moving along swimmingly but im floating around in the background crying out for help. I seem to have put myself on mute. Shockingly though, you can talk to anyone. I generally find myself grabbing a drink with someone (however unhealthy people may view that) to feel comfortable enough even mentioning my thoughts. If you feel that strongly then feel free to vent.
If your friends would leave you then they're not really your friends, and that's not your fault nor your concern. I know what you're dealing with. Go to an inpatient treatment facility, that's always helped me. And I dunno if you're in therapy and taking meds, but those are good too. You need coping skills. As far as non-medical stuff, talk to your family if your family is supportive, count the reasons why you should be grateful for your life and what you have. Know that feelings aren't facts. Hope this helps.
I do it too babes. We're not alone. Sometimes, like you, i do it for no reason. My therapist and i have both agreed that I'm very fidgety, and i have been ever since we started out sessions. We both think it is a means of fidgeting for no reason. I have ADHD and cutting is something i started a long time ago. I didn't do it for a while, but i started again. Since it's addictive, when i need to fidget, i do something that feels good. For some people, its squeezing a ball, others its brushing hair. When people fidget, they tend to choose something that feels good. Cutting is an addiction, just like any other thing can be. Ive started to doodle and draw/colour when i feel he need, and I've started to make friendship bracelets. i tried the squishy ball and silly putty, but those things didn't work. It takes time. Some of my friends have cut too, and really, the only thing that works is finding something else, having supportive friends you can talk to, and time. Whenever i feel like I'm going to cut, i draw or make a bracelet. When I'm walking, since i can draw or make things, i hold a piece of string in my hands and tie little knots.
When it feels like no one understands sometimes, and i know this is sad, talking or blogging about these things with people you don't know helps.