The way you feel is not weird. It is exactly how I used to feel when I cut. I knew I could control when I cut, how deep I cut, and I loved how I would feel comforted. One day I cut too deep, and fortunately around the same time I got a loving, supportive boyfriend who began to help me through it (we are still together to this day!).

Cutting may be a comfort, but it is not healthy. I know you said you do not have many friends, but some friends is better than none at all. I know it is scary to think about them leaving, but try to lean on them. Friends are here to love and support you.

We at the forum are all here for you too. Wanting to stop is the first step towards doing it. You are doing great by even feeling the urge to stop. Can you talk to a counselor or a trusted adult about what is going on?

I dould talk to someone but i dont know who. i cant talk to my parents...there is a distance between us, but maybe someone at school like my pe teacher. The onlii thing is will they have to let my parents know?