Hey yall. Just trying to maybe get some advice for dealing with all the stress of school and finding a reason to continue. I am going through a kinda tough time at a demanding school (well that's what I am told, never been to another to compare it with), and as I lose hope in the social aspects of my life, and fail again and again at basic communication with my family and those of the opposite gender, I notice my grades are dropping allot. I get really depressed when I get lonely, friends are the reason to live! I have 2 major projects worth a 1/3 of my grade-ish due yesterday, and have no way to finish them in time because a) one of them requires interviewing fellow students who are gone for Thanksgiving break, b) everyday that goes by my grade is docked 10% on both projects, so by the time I can finish them, I will only get about 20% on each, and c) I have questions about one project I don't even know how to start, because the rubric is very ambiguous, and the teacher isn't responding. So basically I am failing my classes, and feel like there is no point in continuing because I can't make friends or do anything fulfilling anyway to make the hard work worth it.
I got in an argument today with my family, and once again I feel ashamed to be around them. It really bites to have people who know you best treat you like an insane person in front of your siblings. I try so hard! I can say something as clear as crystal and they jump to the next thing to avoid addressing the problem or turning it into something else. I am not wanted here, I am not respected anywhere, why am I breaking my butt in college again? To get a job, make something of my talents, so I can ultimately support a meaningful lifestyle. No meaning, no point.