I have been binging and purging for a long time now, even when i was quite young. I have never been the slimest of girls and constantly feel fat around others. I can't even remember how i turned to makeing myself sick, it just happened.

I don't do it regularly, every now again when i feel upset or down. I have periods of time where i feel really sad, and this causes me to hate myself, because i am fat.

If i feel that i am eating too much, i tend to cry, and turn to makeing myself sick. I have done it for such a long time that i find it very easy. I can do it by simply clenching my stomach muscles. Unfortunatly, this means that sometimes i don't realise i am doing it. I have made myself sick sometimes and had to swallow it back down.

I rarely be sick and actually get rid of the food, but i regularly am sick and swallow.

I have never been sick over a period of time long enough to lose weight. It is simply a problem of being able to make myself sick too easily, and how terrible i feel when my mood drops.

I am 16 years old and I have not told my mum, but i really want to, i just don't no how to. I feel very down at the moment, i have for a little while, and i feel the urge to be sick all the time after eating, but i am trying very hard not to, because i no it is not good for me. But this week i have probably been sick and swallowed it back down at least 10-15 times.

I really do need help, but i'm so scared to ask for help. I need advice on what to do. I want to tell my mum, but don't know how, i find my problem embarressing and i feel that my mum will think i am stupid.

I need advice on what to do, if I actually do need to do anything at all, or am I just getting worried about something that doesn't matter.

Thank you.