Doctor I have started a psychiatric treatment since 20 years now. but i believe i was not well diagonalized . the psychiatrists i saw were not that competent . we are living in a third world country where medical services are very poor. so you can imagine how mental health services that are a sensitive and complex field could be in a country like that.
I have been subscribed lots of drugs and they caused me a bad deterioration in my intellectual capabilities. (I was a smart student but couldn't complete my studies b/c of these drugs and mental problems). The last treatment i was subscribed is Solian. i'm confused what is the drug called Solian (amisulpride) is used for? in some wikipedia articles it says it can be used as an anti-depressant. some says it can be used to treat bipolar disorder. and most say it is primary used to treat schizophrenia? this caused confusion for me. what is the primary usage amisulpride drugs are used for? is it guaranteed you have some form of schizophrenia if you are subscribed Solian ? even-though you don't show the known symptoms of schizophrenia like hallucinations and delusions thoughts?
I don't believe i have the schizophrenic symptoms. i have a very clear social anxiety disorder combined by a chronic depression and i also suspect i could be a bipolar. But it is hard for me to believe i reached the schizophrenia borders! I don't hear voices, i don't hallucinate..it is true i sometimes have some grandiosity thoughts where i imagine myself as a great scientist or scholar. but i know this is only a tactic i use to relieve the pain of my failure to complete my studies and my general failure in social life b/c of the evident social anxiety disorder.
What should i do ? should i keep searching for another competent psychiatrist? i failed until now to find a competent psychiatrist who is willing to help me. most of the ones i saw seem not very interested in my case and after sometime i feel i'm only loosing money without any progress.
I was recently abandoned by my family and now i'm struggling alone. things became very difficult for me. i need help but no one want to help me! I'm starting to faint and recently started thinking a lot about death. This is a sign i'm now at the edge of total hopelessness and about to give up the fight.
i'm a religious person. but i don't take much benefit from my faith. it gives me relief and comfort sometimes but not enough. my faith is not that strong and my will to grow in faith is also weak b/c of the drugs that alter my mood and brain etc..
I's quit difficult times for me these recent years and i need some advise.