This is my first post here

My ex-gf and I broke up because i did something really stupid.. I logged into her myspace because i felt insecure, i never thought she was cheating or anything it's just i had to know for myself. I was in a relationship awhile ago where the girl was cheating on me. This happen July 10th 2008. i was honest with her and i didn't keep anything from i told her straight out what happen. After i told her she broke up with me saying i didnt trust her..

That next day i was sad and i was on the phone with my best friend and i was writing stuff and a secret she had told me slipped out to my best friend. When things like that happen im honest with people. The next day all day i was thinking about what happen with my friend so i called her up and told her.. She got really mad and told me never to talk to her again..

I really love her i kind of freaked out and started calling her texting her all day all week July 13-18. I know now that was stupid and crazy and annoyed her. On July 19th i went to her house i should have called her but i didnt and she was kind of pissed i could tell so i went up stairs to say hi to her family and her sister told her to go down stairs so we could talk..i gave her a letter,a poem, and her favorite movie.. She asked me,"Why should i forgive you." and i told her,"God had forgiven me and I have forgiven myself." she said ok and she forgave me and that we were cool i told her bye and i loved her and left.

my best friend been talking to her (they aren't together they are friends to) cause she wouldnt talk to me so finally she started to text me last weekend. she told me she had gotten with somebody but he cheated on her..So naturally i asked her out again she said she didn't know about that because she wanted to be single for awhile..So the next day i asked her again and she got mad and told me to leave her alone and not to ruin her day..Well yesterday a week later since we last talked i text her and she responded and so we text a bet then i asked to call and we talked a good hour..I told her how i felt about her and how much i missed her and loved her..She told me she didnt feel the same way anymore about me and that she wants to be my friend..it hurt me alot cause i love her..she say she want to be single til next year when we go to college and most likely we are going to the same college..

I dont know what to do should i just give her more time to her self cause i know i haven't done that at all, the most was six days which ended last night. i was going to bring her out for her birthday next week but she wont be available. I really miss her and love her. i really dont wanna bring up getting back together for awhile because thats driving her away but i love her so much..She went from hating me and never wanting to see me again to talking to me im so confused sad and lost.I really want to get back with her one day im not stupid i know it wont happen over night and i know you can't make someone do what they don't want to do..Should i be here friend again and get to know her again and see where that takes us..I don't know what to do. It just really hurts because i love her and i was so honest with her, maybe nice guys do finish last.