Hi there. I am a student doing my studies overseas. For the past few months here, I kept on having this feeling that I was completely useless and hopeless. It then came to my realization that i was lonely because I wasn't with my siblings. I usually only have my brother to talk to because we like to talk both something in interest, which is computer stuffs. For years, I was with my friends, but I couldn't talk except anything to do with computers. Many people thinks that I was some sort of freak. Always wanted to talk about something else other then computer, but i know i just couldn't do it . Always sitting down with them and kept quiet thinking of what to say . Now worse of all we are at separate ways and have not seen each other for months now.Though i met up with some old friends here, it was not the friends that i thought, who i can depend on. From the time that I came here, I felt completely alone and every night i will keep thinking about many problems such as work, university things, and now with friends. I want to socialize with people, but i just don't know how. I cant live like this for too long. Its just not a good feeling to be alone all by yourself in a confined room. Often at nights, i usually will lye on my bed and then start thinking too much and probably will start crying after that . And sometimes when I go though my friend's Facebook pictures ; it just tells me how much fun they are having and i'm here in my room, just don't know what to do.
What should I do now? - It's already enough stress for me to deal with university's work.
Is thier a computer club you can join? Do you have any other interests other than the computer. What activities do you like to do? I know you must feel really lonely, it's hard to be away from home without someone to talk too, even if it's a casual friend. Do any of the other students ask for you to join them in activities other than school work? Are you really talented at a subject. Perhaps you might want to think about tutoring other students, it might be a way to get to know others. Try to focus on your school work, but you really need some fun time. If you can try to introduce yourself to others that you think you might click with. You never know what might develope until you try.
My best advice would be to hang out with groups that share similar interests with you. Hang out at your school's cafeteria or library, go to concerts, festivals or a place where a lot of folks your age hang out. If you stay long enough someone's bound to chit-chat with you, even for a short while. Before you know it you'll make a few acquaintances and maybe even a few friends.
That and stay positive. People can feel the energy and they will gravitate towards it. Sure you'll meet a few jerks along the way, but if you meet someone nice it would all be worth it.
That's how it happened for me, anyways. =) Good luck!