My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost three years now and we've had an overall great time together. We met right after I graduated high school and have been dating while I'm at college. All my life I had the idea of the type of man I would marry and through most of our relationship I've felt he was everything I'd always wanted. We are always able to see each other every weekend because my college isn't far from my hometown, but now things are starting to change. Lately things have been falling out and we've both started to become distant. There are increasing amounts of time where we don't talk or see each other and it's coming to the point where it's not really bothering either of us anymore. There are many times when I think of just ending it and moving on, but then there's other times I sit and think about all that's happening and think of not being with him and get overwhelmingly sad and refuse to just let it end. However, despite those times when I get sad and begin to try harder to make up with him, we still argue and things continue to stay distant between us.
I've always noticed that I feel the need to be in a relationship constantly, and I hate it when I'm not. I think these feelings are the result of my parents divorce, which happened I was seven or eight. I've been told that their divorce kind of created the feeling of always wanting to have someone. On top of that, everyone tells me that I'm growing so much while attending college and that I'm possibly just outgrowing him, despite the fact that he's a wonderful guy. I just can't help but think of all the good times we've had and think that maybe we'll get back there and that all of this is just a phase...
I love him so much despite all of this stuff between us and I know he still loves me as a person, but I wonder if it's enough or if it's the right kind of love anymore. Am I growing away from him because of college and am just afraid to let go and be alone or should I hang on to him?