hmm not sure if my first post went through...I dont know how to take what my therapist told me earlier today...I was trying to explain to her how its been made known to me by the devil that he is back in my life and he is going to try to tempt me to do things with a multifaceted approach, I explained this to my therapist and i was informed by her that the devil represents unresolved issues with my father. So after much thought and an emotional rollercoaster from being informed that they are reducing my seroquel im not sure how to take what was said to me... Is my therapist saying that im the son of satan? im in my 30's have had trouble all my life in many respects have been in hospitals inpatient programs and outpatient programs, jail, have nearly commited suicide in various ways many times have self mutilated, tortured animals and on occasion have been reduced to eating my own feces as a coping mechanism to deal with these occurances throughout my life. However, for the last 5 years i have been on high dose seroquel and have done exceptionally well in my eyes, i can actually carry on a conversation with another person intelligently but now ive been informed that they are going to reduce my seroquel because they think its too much and that im the son of satan...and i fear that this is proof furthermore that the devil is after my soul. I really feal like at the bare bones all i have is this enormous well of fear from which to feed on. no medicine = no chance for me. The only thing that has been ofered to me is group therapy, i feel like a pistol is being held to my head, group therapy no meds is what i get for not using illegal drugs for 12 years not drinking for 7 years not being arrested for 16 years. I live with my mother and we are both very concerened that without medication i will revert to a gibberling emotionally explosive wreck. What are my rights and responsibilities at a state funded clinic? and what can i do about them reducing my meds? i currently take around 2500 mg of seroquel and some other things and it has really been a godsend. I am really angered and afraid of where this is going...