I feel ya on the geodone, it put me in the hospital with poison symptoms! (it was pretty gross) I am 31, male, and also have schizophrenia. I have been through several lengthy periods of psychosis and I understand just what you are talking about. Yes, I felt exhausted when everything calmed down, and I had the same feeling of not knowing what to do with all of the time that I spent watching for the CIA

Really the only thing I can tell you is that it passed, after I settled down with a medication (Seroquel XR)and I got over the shock of what I had just been through things started to line up again. You mentioned that you stayed sober for 4 months, keep yourself sober, it will help with your recovery and overall prognosis (don't get me wrong, I'm no saint, but it does help if you do drink or whatever don't go overboard) And do things you enjoy, try new things. I know it sounds silly but keeping your mind occupied is a good thing, find things that make you happy, be it taking walks, playing an instrument, writing, whatever, just keep yourself busy. I am glad to hear that you are on the brighter side of your experience, I hate to say it but it takes time, but what you do with that time will make a difference. Feel free to post your progress too, success stories are always nice to see on a schizophrenia forum!! I wish you the best, keep in touch.