Hello, my name is Louise, I'm 17 and I just joined this website.
I have been anorexic for over a year now and a little while ago I decided that I've had enough and I want to grow up to be healthy.
My length is 5"5 and my natural "setpoint" weight was about 110-112 pounds. I was underweight to begin with, been underweight my entire life. It's in our family (dad's side).
To make a long story short: I had issues with my self esteem and started restricting calories to cope with my problems, causing weight loss to about 99 pounds.
I lost my period, became obsessed with food and loads of other anorexic symptoms.
I decided I wanted to recover because I want to do something better with my life then counting calories behind the computer all day and night.
So, after living of 1300 calories for about a year, I slowly increased my calorie intake to about 1400-1500.
I gained back a little, I'm at 102 pounds right now.
I know I'm still underweight and before my eating problem, weight had never been an issue for me, but now I can't help but feeling really freaked out because all the weight mainly seems to go to my stomach. Some people say it will even out, some people say it won't.
I've read countless websites about eating disorders and I don't know what to believe anymore.
So I just have a few questions for people who had anorexia and have recovered:
1: How do you cope with the weight gain? I can't help freaking out over the fact that my weight is going to my stomach, and it sometimes is really tempting to just starve the fat off again.
2: Some people say you should slowly increase calories (100 a week or so) and I also read about clinics putting their patients on a program of 3000 calories a day?
Which one is the right way?
3: My father said as long as I keep exercising, things will turn out fine but I don't trust him because I already exercise alot (probably too much) and that didn't stop the fat from going to my stomach.
How much exercise am I supposed to do?
Or am I supposed to take a break from exercise until I reach my 50 Kg again and then start toning my muscles?
4: Will my period only return when I reach my setpoint weight again?
5: How do you stop compulsively counting calories if you know the calorie content of almost everything?
I hope my topic isn't to long to read xD Thanks in advance.