It has been a long time since I've been on here (2-3 years perhaps), some of my posts from back then may be archived somewhere on this site if anyone wants to dig them up, but a quick recap of my situation is this:
I was a hopeless alcoholic. I drank and drank. beer, hard liquor, wine, whatever. I drank a lot. Everyday. I could not stop and I was ruining my life. I hadn't finished college, I had no job, I was losing my girlfriend, I was losing my sanity and lost my physical health. I rambled down a path of self destruction in a constant state of delusion and intoxication. Nothing could help and I was certain that I would have to lose everything to see the light, but by then it would be too late and I wouldn't care anymore. I simply could not overcome alcoholism.
I have now been sober for just nearly 6 months! The desire to drink is practically gone, the mind always lingers but I do not need to act impulsively anymore. I am in the process of finishing my degree (2 years to go) and have moved in with my girlfriend and we are very happy. This new life is something I only dreamed of when I was still drinking. But I can assure anyone who struggles or knows someone who struggles with this horrible disease that you can regain your life if you simply have the desire to change and the support to fight this addiction! I do not know of a "universal plan of recovery" and although I found support through AA and actually love the program and people involved in it, I would not go as far to say that it is imperative to recovery. All I will provide here is the strategy that worked for me:
1) Decision to Change
a) I was willing to do anything that could help me
b) I asked for help: therapists, friends, family
c) I found AA
2) Alcoholics Anonymous
a) I got a sponsor on the first day
b) I went to many meetings all over town
c) I honestly shared and eagerly listened
d) I call my sponsor daily!
3) My Program
a) I do not follow any prescribed set of "rules"
b) I do everything that keeps me sober
i) anti-depressants
ii) AA meetings/steps/involvement
iii) I'm honest and fearless now
iv) I enjoy non-alcoholic beer
v) I read anything related to alcoholism!
vi) Taking to my sponsor is life-saving
c) I don't drink and try to avoid most addictive behavior
d) I do reward myself in other ways
e) I set standards and goals for my life
Living Sober
a) It is worth it!
b) Each day/week/month I remain sober gives me back my life
c) I can do more than I could have ever imagined now that I am sober
I don't intend to offend anyone or come off as arrogant or to boast, I really only hope that maybe one person could gain wisdom from this and decide to get sober and find their own program that works for them.
Thanks for reading and all are welcome to share and comment! Best of luck to all those who still struggle.