I was recently diagnosed as bipolar. For years I was told that I simply suffer from depression but a new doctor I went to picked up on other things and ran some blood tests and verbal evaluations. For half my life I've believed that I just had depression. I've made tons of mistakes in my life. I've done bad things, crazy things, reckless things. I can't help but wonder if any of this could have been avoided had I been diagnosed and treated correctly. It's really throwing me for a whirlwind. Has anyone else had feelings like these
Oh, and my husband, as much as he loves me, doesn't understand what is going thru my head...he thinks when I'm down, that I'm just sad and need to get over it...if I'm in an up phase(I'm the kind that gets really hyper irritable and reckless) He thinks I'm just grouchy or making stupid decisions. How can I make him see that I need his support, not his critizism
i was also recently diagnosed with bipolar. Because of my history of abuse, and being givin up to dcfs by my parents, the phychiatrist said i was post tramatic, and had borderline personality. a couple of years the very same parents turned me in to dcfs, for my temper and agression against my boyfriend, a bipolar symptom, that resulted in me getting my rights terminated, and my parents adopting one of my children. During that time i was ordered to see a phycologist, upon the first visit he diagnosed me as bipolar, but the court didnt take that into consideration. Im not sure why they even ordered me to do the evaluation. Never the less, i mostly have mania episodes
usually feel on top of the world, like i have a serious euphoria. but i can snap in a split second to seriously angry too. now i havent talked to my mom in almost i year and a half, i have attempted but she refused. a month ago she suddenly passed away at 48 years old, but the crazy thing was i wasnt even really phased by it. not because i dont care or dont love her, i just am in a euphoric state, and nothing can get me down. is this crazy of me?
i too have done bad things, and been very reckless. i feel like im untouchable, so i beat people up alot, and am condcending to them. but you cant blame yourself for that stuff. definatly if you have been diagnosed properly and treated the out come probably would be different, as would mine. but dont beat your self up about it.
Soooooo, I'm going back to the dr in the morning to follow up and talk about how we are going to treat me now. I'm nervous. And pretty freaking edgy lately...I hope I don't have to be all doped up. The husband is getting better though so that helps out. Plus as I said in another post, I'm back in the gym pretty hard core. That works out a lot of my tension and aggression. Plus my body is looking smoking lol! Well, anyway, goodnight everyone. I hope you all are doing well!