Hi, my name is Amber. After reading some of the stuff that is on here, I feel like I have to tell my story too. I've been dealing with depression for almost a year now. I've felt, I wouldn't say alone, but more lonely. Most of my friends can say that they understand what I'm going through, but they can't. I know that I have no reason to be depressed. I'm going to school to be a nurse, working with a steady income, and barely have to pay anything to stay at home. I think mine was triggered when I put more on myself then needed. At the time I started noticing a change in my mood my boyfriend at the time had a bad drug problem and in the end I had to end it with him. It got to much out of control and he needed time to figure out what he wanted in life besides drugs. I was pretty much a live in caretaker for my grandma and my dementia ridden grandpa, I started a new job and my mom lost her job which was a big loss of money in out house. It all happened at once and now that things are better, I don't understand why I can't get better. I have my good days and my bad, my bad days are pretty bad though. I believe it is a life long disease. It comes and it goes and I'm okay with that. I manage my medication as well as I can, even though I wish I didn't have to take them. I'm really glad I came across this group because I know I need someone or other people to talk to and I know that everyone needs someone to talk to at some point.