Hello all here's my information
I'm 36 years old and as long as I can remember have had trouble concentrating on a task. In reading this is especially bad. I have a few problems.
* When I read I have to read a sentence 2 or 3 times to understand it. If the sentence is simple like this one, usually after reading it twice I can understand it. I will often break the sentence down into groups of words so that I can understand it. For example in this sentence "If you want to post messages, please register. All posts by unregistered guests are held for moderation, to protect against spam posts " I have to break down the first part to understand that I want to post a message then I have to register. In the second sentence I have to break it down to first see it's talking about unregistered guests and then about moderation. Finally I have to factor in the spam posts. It takes me 2 or 3 attempts to understand a simple sentence like this one.
* I will often have great difficulty reading for more than 30 seconds. My brain seems to become tired as if its expending tremendous effort to understand a simple sentence and if the words are even slightly technical then I have a much greater hard time.
* The words don't appear flipped or anything like that. For example, "cat" seems to be "cat" to me and not "tac" or "act". English was traditionally my best subject so I don't understand why I have such a hard time reading it. I went to my local clinic a few mos. ago and it tested me for ADHD and found no sign of that. Only that my expectations for what I should achieve in life are way too high. Basically the doctor said I didn't have brains to do law. This is extremely distressing and I know it's the truth. However I am willing to undergo brain surgery if necessary to increase my intelligence. I will also take steroids or dangerous drugs if needed. Anything to make myself smarter. If anyone knows of how I can do this successfully please let me know.
* I am doing prelaw and the language simply doesn't make sense to me. It's like Greek. I have only wanted to be a judge all my life so I really want to try and figure out why I have this problem for over 30 years. If someone can tell me whether this is dyslexia that would be great.