Honey when you throw up over time all that acid can end up burning the lining of your esophagus..You deplete your body of all the minerals and water it needs..

When I was your age I ate very small portions.. I think most teens do..I know that you are thinking you will gain the weight as your mom did but you are wrong..EVERYTHING we do is by choice except when God says it's time it's time and pay taxes..This is why I said you need to talk with your youth pastor I see changes in you and it does concern me..Talk with your dad get on meds..Do something right for you..kd

Nice Avatar by the way. On whose (her) arm you want to write love?..............never mind, just asking out of curiosity............

Alright, my English isn't the greatest in the world. So instead of trying to understand 'purging' and 'binged', I want to know if you have a nauseous feeling. Do you actually end up vomiting or do you have any other stomach disorder?

You can eat smaller meals but you have to take them several times a day NOT just 2 times. Eating smaller meals several times is actually good for people who want to gain weight.

Not comfortable with weight? Want to gain or lose? Your height and weight?

Please go see a doctor...a possible eating disorder is nothing to mess around with. Are you purging on purpose or does it just (come up)? Either way PLEASE see a doctor. I had an eating disorder that almost took my life I would eat a small meal once a day and purge. By the time I was in the hospital (by force) I had already done damage to my body that I still struggle with to this day (that was 10 years ago). PLEASE see a doctor. Hugs and Hope.

KDLEE: Hello. I'm thankful that you're reading most of my posts. It's wonderful to know you care... I appreciate your intrest in my wellbeing... I agree with you; there are some changes in my character that I don't understand. I'm really, really, really struggling recently. For a stupid reason, too. *sigh* Boy troubles. Yeah, I know, how ridiculous is that? *sigh again!*
I guess I have to talk with him...but I have a feeling he won't understand.

CONCERNEDN: Oh, my avatar is the logo for TWLOHA, a organization that helps people with addictions and such. It's great, you should check them out.
Binging is eating lots of food, and purging is inducing vomit or using laxatives to get rid of the food...
I think I'm fat. A couple weeks ago I was perfectly fine with my weight. Enjoying it, even, but now, I'm just thinking I'm a huge blob!! I'm about 5 feet 6 inches and I weigh around 120. I'm a swimmer, so I've got swimmer's legs...full of muscle. My stomach is what I'm worried about, though. Thanks for the advice.

KEYWESTIE: Hello. I can't go see a doctor because I'm under aged. My mother wouldn't allow me to attend an appointment without her. What else can I do? *sigh*
Hope...yes, that's important.

Though a youth pastor might be helpful in the spiritual sense, you need to see a doctor to help you with the physical. Perhaps you can have your mother go with you to the appointment, but ask the nurse ahead of time if you can talk privately with the doctor. If your mother hears and wonders why, just tell her you get embarrassed with her in the same room…after all you’re older now. It is common for parents of teens to wait in the lobby.

If you're afraid your mom would be upset, then after the appointment is made, secretly call the office yourself to notify them ahead of time that you need some alone time with the doctor because it’s hard for you to talk openly with her right there. They should be accommodating without blabbing to Mom. When I was a teen, the doctor always talked to me privately. Only the really young need a parent in the same room. The main reason doctors want parents at the office, is for insurance and payment information or to approve any medical procedure. But consultation and exam should be parent free. Most doctors know that many teens won't be open with Mom or Dad right there. Hope that helps.

BTW: Your weight sounds ideal, especially if you are lean - muscle is heavier than fat, so you are thin. Try to eat several meals throughout the day to maintain your bstrength and health. It would suck to damage yourself long term.

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Experienced User KDLEE: Hello. I'm thankful that you're reading most of my posts. It's wonderful to know you care... I appreciate your intrest in my wellbeing... I agree with you; there are some changes in my character that I don't understand. I'm really, really, really struggling recently. For a stupid reason, too. *sigh* Boy troubles. Yeah, I know, how ridiculous is that? *sigh again!*
I guess I have to talk with him...but I have a feeling he won't understand

Sweetheart I will read all your posts I find..I know you want help..For your height your wieght is great..Muscle can carry some weight and you are a swimmer..The purging will injure your muscles and entire overall body..Rad on this..You are a smart lady..The above post tells oulikeI did -tell your mom to not go in-you are of an age that some things are private..The doc will probably talk with her nayway but at lest you willhave him/her on your side..This is about you not oyur mom..


I have PM you..Let me know what you think..GOd bless..

Thanks for those explaining those meanings. My English is dreadful at times.

Even though you may not like me lecturing you but I wouldn't actually mind taking some English lessons from you...........

Before I come into a conclusion, let me tell you are tall (5'6") compared to your age. Your Body Mass Index (BMI) is 19.4. The normal range for BMI is 18.5-24.9. So you are NOT at all fat. You have a perfectly slim body. You will gain more weight with age. So in my opinion it's not at all a bad thing to stay slim at this age. I would say for the moment you don't need to put weight but make sure you DON'T loose any as well. Maintain a healthy diet and avoid junk foods. Keep up with the swimming because it's a healthy habit. As far as stomach is concerned, I am still a little confused as to what you are trying to know. I mean are you talking about being fat or some digestive problem? Sorry for that.

You are NOT a huge blob by any means. Who told you that?

Hope that helps! Trying to act like a doctor.............

LEMON11: Thanks for the advice. I'll be applying that knowledge. I do need to take care of myself. I don't want to end up in a mental hospital.

KDLEE: Yeah, I agree with you. It's time of me to take control. I NEED to take care of this before it gets worse. I'm getting sick, and people will eventually start to notice. *sigh* I have to be mature. Thanks for the PM.

CONCERNEDN: Hey, I don't think your English is all that poor. Thanks for all the helpful advice. It's great.

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/bulimia_si gns_symptoms_causes_treatment.htm

This is for anyone who has a eating disorder..It is a good site with information only..

Honey--all I can say is I am here..

KDLEE: Thank you so much. You mean so much to me. I wish we could just sit and talk this through... but all we can do as of right now is try to get through this in one piece. Ha, I say that like you're suffering, too. *sigh*
Well, thanks for all your help!

Honey, I would love to sit down with you and talk.. I don't suffer through the eating disorder-but my baby sister does..She is down to skin and bones..I hadn't brought her up only because I thought I could keep things separate..The more we talk the closer we become and I just saw my sister yesterday..Her clothes hang on her.. Her skin color is awful and due to the loss of minerals etc she is also losing bone strength..She contnues to worry about gaining weight-she doesn't see it..She refuses counceling and her own doctor tries to help her..

So you see I really do understand yet I don't..It scares me what people do to themsleves and I am powerless to stop it..So I beg and plead and look for answers..kd

KDLEE: Hello. I'm not anorexic. I'm (borderline) bulimic. All I want to do is loose this extra weight. Then, I'll be down. I realize that's "what they all say", but I truly mean it. I'm going to get help, so that'll FORCE me to stop before it gets serious. (Super serious, that is.)

I'm seeing my youth pastor again tomorrow, and I'm really not wanting to stress him out because of stuff with the church (we've got VBS this week!) so...idk what to do!

idk what to do! (eye roll) like you tell me..ha ha.
I'm going to get help, so that'll FORCE me to stop before it gets serious. (Super serious, that is.) It already is super serious..Youa re casuing harm to yourself by purging..

Honey you have all the answers you will ever need in that heart and mind of yours..You know what you need to to it's whether you talk with the youth pastor or a phsychiatrist, dad and mom etc..Once you let someone in on this then the help will begin..Your weight is a perfect weight..It is easy to go from or add to a bad habit..Plus it is still not healthy and is dangerous..kd

Yeah, okay. I get you.
Maybe I don't want to talk to them, though. Maybe I'm nervous or angry or...something.

Only you can decide..No one can force you..If you want help it's there you just have to ask and grab on for the changes.. Nervous or angry--these are things that a doc can address or your parents..kd