I suffer from psychotic depression or so they tell me and I just get so angry sometimes. I have to take anti-psychotic drugs.

I have lost countless friends and have very few people to turn to. I do have a good relationship with my family though (most of them anyway). I just find it hard as my friends just don't get what I have to deal with. I spend my life running around after other people and never seem to have time to myself and when I blow up they can't seem to understand.

Weirdly enough if I keep myself to myself and do what I love which is cycling I have quite a nice existance. Just shouldn't cut yourself off from people really or should you? I'm just getting to the stage where I hate people which is probably not very healthy - I've recently given up my job as I couldn't handle the people there. I find it hard to handle most people. Anyway I'm having a nice relaxed time at the moment, just need to address things.