I am twenty years old. I am male. I am terrified.
I have, since I was eleven, been diagnosed with b.p.d., bipolar disorder, O.d.d, a few social anxiety disorders, and of course, a.d.h.d. Now, having spent time away from therapy, I think something major is going on. I have these thoughts sometimes... About things, stupid things, and my brain will be thinking about them like they are real... Like things I once read in a book or saw on tv or watched or heard... Its getting to the point where I am paralyzed with fear at the outside world, and soon enough I will be homeless. I have an apathetic attitude toward life that makes me miserable. I try to succeed but I rationalize to cope with the fear and thoughts. I am disorganized beyond belief and I think I'm going crazy. I have a cousin who is paranoid schizophrenic already and I just don't know any more waht to think about myself. My moods are haywire, and I'm having trouble putting two and two together day to day... I guess my true question is then... Is there some way an uninsured twenty year old young man... can get a psych eval done... please... should I even get one?