Hello, guys, I'm 17 and I'm really starting to get sick of my symptoms.

About this winter I started having panic attacks, lots of them, and also when I'd go to sleep I'd wake up and couldn't breathe for a few secs or be totally paralysed for a few secs. I had an EEG, saw a cardiologist, neurologist, psychiatrist and they all came to the conclusion it's a panic disorder.

The psychiatrist put me on anti-depressants but I had a hallucination (everything went blue, then white, then started spinning and I heard a spacecraft taking off)

The doctor took me off the antidepressants and put me on a special kind of antipsychotics which in low dosages are used to treat depression and anxiety (fluanxol - flupentixol)

Anyway, the panic attacks stopped completely but now I have something worse. For 2 months I've been having this feeling of unreality, incredible derealization. I feel like nothing's real, it's all a dream and keep questioning everything. Everything's foggy, confusing, my memory is impaired.

All my life I've had weird thoughts like everyone I know (even characters from TV shows - yeah I know that's pathetic lol) are watching me from a screen and approving or disapproving of every action I do. I know that's true but I think I use this as a coping mechanism for loneliness.

I'm very paranoid I might develop schizophrenia (i've had no hallucinations except that one and I don't hear voices) and my grand-uncle was schizophrenic and had a horrible life.

The psychiatrist doesn't know what to do cuz my symptoms are very weird and keep changing. The derealization is most often associated with anxiety but nothing seems to help it and online almost everyone says it lasted 2,3,8 years and this really gets to me.

Sorry for the long post and now my real question is has anyone who has schizophrenia felt like that before it progressed to a full-blown disease. Could this be the pre-onset phase of schizophrenia? I know I have to accept it and try to move on but it's just unbearable.

Thank you!