I'm an adult who should already lead my own life since long ago, but reality is that I'm stuck with my parents up to this moment.

I enjoy working and being busy. Soon after I graduated I found a great job and great life far away from my parents. But in no time my parents called me whenever they have the time, asked me to stop working and going back home saying that they want me ready for some marriage arrangements. They begged, pushed me up to the point where I can't give up my (I thought it's going to be my last) respect for them and decided to go home.

Soon after I went back home, I started to do my own business but my dad said it's bad for a woman my age to think about working. I should think about getting married instead. They did everything they can to stop me from working. And here, it's a common thing for single woman to depend on their parents. As that become part of the culture itself, it's hard for me to find someone that I can share my thoughts with.

After stopped doing business, I started to focus on my hobby. I used all my time to improve my skill in everything positive, but again my mom kept pushing me away from doing those things, emphasizing on how useless all of those things are. I like to do things effectively and fast but my dad wants me to be a "slow mover" and more feminine. My mom keep blaming me for not being an attractive woman. I'm an adult, yet they treat me like a baby. Every time my parents told me to say this and that, to do this and that.

To make matter worse, I was a gay. I have no interest in man at all. Every time my parents introduce me to a guy, I feel as if I was pushed from a cliff. I want to tell my parents the truth but from some other experiences, they clearly won't be able to handle the truth.

It's very hard to talk to my parents. They are the type that can't accept anything new. They even have a hard time listening to me talking more than one sentence. They never listen but talking as if they knew the whole thing already.

I tried to run away many times but those didn't work. I'm mentally weak, every time I face the problem I simply lose. Now, I'm completely worn out. I become mentally ill and lost my positive threads little by little. I started to avoid other people and developed some horrible habits. Maybe it should be a mental problem after all.