Pregnency and Stress

hello Annie,1st of all,i just want to say,i respect you for the person you are.and glad that you want to keep the baby.i can totally understand what you are going through.ive been in a similar situation.i've been through depression since i was about 16-17 yrs old.it started when my dad left us all-my mom and 3 younger sisters,we had a hard life.i finished my graduation somehow.found a job.met about 2-3 guys one by one whom i used to imagine as my future husbands,but somehow it didnt work out,well i broke off with them on time,without getting too close to them.then i met my husband,fell in love with him,we carried on for about an year and a half with sexual intimacy(i was a virgin before that),then the damned time came when his family wanted to break us off.his father warned him he will die,if his son doesnt put me off.my boyfrnd tried his best but couldnt convince him.hey,well,let me tell you,im from india,and things here are very different.we have this caste system,strictly no sex before marriage,girl shouldnt be elder to the boy,arranged marriages,and so on.my husband is 3 yrs younger to me,we are not from the same caste in my religion.okay,so things went bad and my boyfrnd just told me,we need to break off this relationship.i was shattered.i always thought i'll break my virginity only with the person whom i loved the most,the one with whom im going to get married.i didnt tell that thing to my parents,not did he to his parents,but it was killing me.i thought of dying so many times.i thought if he really loved me,he should be with me.i thought my life is shattered,there was nothing i could do normally,24/7 i thought of him,i couldnt imagine he could leave me so easily.how could he stop loving me.then somehow i gathered courage and after 2 months we were talking with each other again.then we were together again.we got married after being in the relationship for about 5 years.i suffered 2 miscarriages,and now have a 2 year old son.18th sept is out marriage anniversary and we are going to complete 4 years then.i cannot say i'm in a very happy situation now.,but i remembered those days,when i read about you,it seems just like yesterday.and at that time i had decided,if i would have been pregnant and came to know after we broke up,i would have tried to keep the baby...as i love babies too.what i can suggest you from here is that,please take good care of your baby starting from now,you know when you have the baby in your hands,you forget everything else in the world.and for your boyfriend and other people you can have a dna test,which will confirm the father.i dnt know how early can you have it,but it will surely help.you can still live with respect,as you have done nothing.anybody,who asks you about the baby's father,tell them about the father and tell them you are going to get a dna test on your baby.and your boyfriend...please forget him!!i know its hard,but youll soon learn to live without him.you have someone with you now,whom you can call you own and love infinitely...your very own baby.some men are that way,you cannot trust them..just dump them,out of your life and memories.if you need any help let me know.im always there for you.God bless you.

sorry i couldnt reply to your other post,as it gave an error,so i posted my reply on this post of yours.you know,i too had a very sad pregnancy,i would cry every other day.my situation was very bad.i was very down,and always use to worry about my unborn child.well,fortunately my son turned out to be a healthy baby,thanks to God.also as i said earlier,i went through 2 miscarriages before this child.my life has been giving me depressing situations all the time,but somehow i made it till here,i dont know whats in the future,but always hope everything will be fine and my son grows up into a fine gentleman and lives a happy life.